sweet lemonade, i'm done with this quarter!

i swear, those last few weeks like to have done me in. depression and i were playing tug-of-war and there were a couple of times my ass sat in the sand. i have been trying to do way, way too much, i'm sure, but i have such a hard time saying no when something looks fun.

so i've been slogging my way through four classes, a full-time job squeezed into half the time, editing a literary criticism magazine, bowling on my weekly league, putting together playlists for my weekly radio show, broadcasting play-by-play for college basketball and hockey games, running a couple nights of week with my running buddy, keeping track of the clubs i'm in and can't attend because of scheduling conflicts, going to quaker meeting on sundays, driving to cleveland to see my family, flying to georgia for mike's graduation, and oh yeah running the house and taking care of myself and three cats while i was alone for five months. *and* going to counseling (gee, can't imagine why i'd need that!). i loved all of it, and i would hate to let any of it go. but something apparently had to give.

what gave was my job. trying to cram everything i had to do there into twenty hours a week wasn't working. i wasn't willing to wait longer to graduate, and i would have to if i put in the hours at my job that i needed to put in to do it right. in the end, school won out. i'm fortunate to have the opportunity to go to school right now without having to worry about feeding myself - i will thank mike every day for that - and it's worth giving up the job i've loved for three years. today was my going-away party and tomorrow is my last day. next monday will be the first day in years that i wake up with no job to go to and absolutely nothing to do but enjoy the day. i'm not sure what to do with myself.